Christmas, Etc

Sorry, I haven't been so diligent with this blog as I'd like. :) So, it's almost February! Christmas was pretty good, considering. I think the idea of it and as for our emotions I think we were worse thinking about how hard it would be as opposed to how it actually transpired. Christmas Eve and Day weren't that bad and to say the least we stayed pretty busy and that helped. Whenever we had time to sit down and think about it, we were a little sad. Some of the hardest things for me was at one point we had gone to Toys R' Us to look at some stuff for Madison and walked past the baby section and I was literally fighting tears! It is harder during a holiday that a lot of people focus around the children. It was hard not buying stuff for our baby girl like we should be. It absolutely helped that we have Madison, I know it would have been a lot harder on us if we didn't. Watching her enjoying the lights (wondering what Hailey would have thought of them) and Madison telling us every chance she got what she wanted for Christmas, was such a joy. It's funny the way things work because as I watched Madison take everything in, especially since she is at that age she seems more receptive to everything, I wondered what Hailey would be thinking of it all; the wrapping paper, the lights, Santa, etc. All the while I wonder with a little bit of peace, thinking she is watching from above. One thing that warmed my heart was imagining the view....can you imagine looking down from Heaven at all the Christmas lights! That would be quite a site! We also did amazingly well since it was last Christmas that I gave Jason a special gift letting him know we were pregnant!
New Years was interesting as well, we couldn't decide quite what we wanted to do and opted to stay home, Jason had mentioned he wasn't too excited to 'celebrate' 2011 and I understand, I was wanting to put happy thoughts and wishes to 2012!
As February approaches we are closing in on the 6 month mark; which means we can start trying again. I'm not promising we'll be waiting that long....(we may be trying now). ;) I wanted to start trying last month but my doctor wanted me to wait just to make sure I'm healed up. I decided to 'start' trying now with the thinking that we most likely won't get pregnant right away. It took at least 2 months both times I've been pregnant so far. So, needless to say, hopefully next Christmas or January (or February) we will be hopefully enjoying a new baby in our arms and house!
So, as I've posted these blogs, I've gotten a lot of responses regarding my blog and that I help them see what they can pray for, for us. Well, I've posted a couple of times on Facebook, but to put it all out in words; I have been contemplating what to do job wise. I love Madison's Mother's Day Out and I can always sub there, but with this next pregnancy, I'm not sure what restrictions I may have, etc. I do sometimes worry that I overdid myself when I was pregnant with Hailey and I don't want to do that with the next one. I would love to just stay home, but financially that's not possible right now. So, needless to say for those that have us on your prayer list, please be thinking of us as we start the journey of another pregnancy and that everything goes well, etc. Also be praying for direction for me in my job. I have changed jobs a few times simply because I chose to change it and I want to make sure any changes I make now will be what God wants for us.
Thank you all who continue to support us and think of us; we do still have our hard days but we get by.
Until next time. :)