"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:1-5
Saw this today and liked how it applied!
This week has been kind of interesting, but not too bad. I did have a little bit of a hard time yesterday but kept myself surrounded so that helped a lot! I think the gloomy weather is affecting how I feel! When it's sunny I'm not that upset, and when it's cloudy I feel a little sad!
I've been obsessed with having things to remember Hailey by, but at night when I'm trying to sleep all I'm thinking about is how I wish I didn't have anything to remember her by because I wish she were here! It's a tough road, and we are hanging on the best we can!
Madison has clearly learned that Hailey died and she will say exactly that. I'm greatful she knows she's in Heaven watching over us and has things to remember her by. She has some of the toys that came with some of the flowers and one of them is her 'Hailey bear' and she took it to school with her. I love that she has that! I know it's going to be maybe a little hard and maybe a little interesting as she gets older and asks questions. I'm especially interested to see how she reacts when we bring a baby home; I'm sure there will certainly be questions then.
Well, I really just wanted to post that verse; I loved it when I came across it because it seemed to be right in line with everything. I also listened to a song, "Glory Baby" by Watermark this week; I had heard it before, but this was the first time since we lost Hailey and it truly brought tears to my eyes! It always has and did even more this time. It is a good song, though in dealing with what we are going through.
We are dealing and lately I have been thinking more about therapy in any form and definitely want to make sure we go to something somewhat soon, just to make sure we are dealing. Talking in general helps so I'm thinking talking to a group or a professional will definitely help us both!
Until next time.
Bless your heart. I was behind on reading blogs and got to do some catching up today. My heart goes out to you. All we have is hope in HIM. Our prayers are with you.
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