Relationships part 2?

Well, I don't know if I'm in the process of "growing" more in this area or just rethinking what I've previously come to understand. Well lately I was thinking on the line of making the effort in that yes it takes the effort to make a realtionship work but sometimes I feel bad reaching out b/c I feel like I'm intruding I think mostly because I know how busy I am or can be and wonder if they are as well. I think mainly I'm trying to find my boundries. I've always been the person who worries too much about what others think of me and as I've grown I have learned to not do that as much but of course there are still times you can't help it. I think it is a little human nature and part being a woman. :) I am definitely finding out that learning and growing are one in the same! I think more than anything I work myself up a little bit because part of me wants to be that friend that talks to one or so friends everyday; or basically has at least one good friend that I talk to at least once or twice a day and sometimes in this day with everyone so busy all the time it doesn't seem like there's time. Of course when I do think of that I do either send a text or try to remember to facebook them. Which in part to me seems kind of silly; I remember when we couldn't wait to get home from school just so we could talk on the phone and with a few of my friends meant we just sat there on the phone doing whatever but really not talking. Probably why they invented texting so you could say what you needed to as you needed to without all the awkwardness. Sometimes I want to embrace that awkwardness, it builds character! I have avoided awkwardness a lot in my life, but sometimes, going with it just teaches you more and adds to who you are!! Frankly I think I'm still growing emotionally etc! I've had a few things going on that have really made me stop to figure out how I really feel about things. On the plus side one of the relationships I am really greatful for that has grown is with my mom! We talk more than we used to and there is a lot less tension than we used to! Maybe because she calls me about one thing or another or I'm calling her about a specific thing and we end up talking about the normal day to day stuff, I guess b/c I get tired of only talking to Jason about the day to day; especially when he is there in some of the day to day! :) I guess it still amazes me that we are still growing and learning even in my old age LOL! Although I'm sure that even when I'm a grandma, I'll still be learning! I think part of what makes it so interesting is I am the type of person who does not enjoy change very well, but some of it I am starting to embrace! Maybe I will start calling people when I feel like I need to instead of thinking, nah, I'll just email her later or facebook her tomorrow. If you don't like me calling too bad! :) Take care, until next time!