Hodge Podge

So, I'm a little behind, at least on my blog, sometimes I feel like on everything. :) Well, I thought I would update a little. I have done a few more sewing projects since my last post; if you follow on Facebook I've put up pictures. I did finally take Madison to do professional portraits! I think for the majority of pictures I may want I'll just do at home if at all possible like I did her 6 months! It's just easier b/c then you can do what you want with them and not worry about it and decide how much you want to pay on printing them out. As for ones that might be for special occasions and such I'll still take her to a studio. :)
On another note; I was thinking the other day, as I have been lately how interesting life can be. It's just so amazing the concept of being a grown up you have as a child and when you are all grown up, you realize how innocent you were. It also puts things in percpective because you want to make sure your children (and in my case my nieces that I watch) keep that innocence. You really think about how you say things and frankly what you say! Aside from all that it's hard to deal with your emotions and maintain a composure! I just feel like I've been so confused on how to feel about things lately. It's funny how life seems to be going good; everything is in order and makes sense and then one thing happens and it seems like several things happen; it's never one thing at a time. Like with your car or house! There are a lot of family things going on right now and it seems like Madi and I have been busy without really being too busy so I haven't had a chance to spend time with friends except a couple of playdates. I think that is what my deal is lately I feel like I just don't know how to deal with what's on my plate and maybe part of it is having the chance to get out of the house childless either with the girls or just Jason and not being able to do that for a while things pile up! I think a lot of it has been this flu epidemic also, I think I've put back not doing some things b/c I don't want Madi or myself to get sick! Lucky for us Madi's flu shot is still good; I on the other hand am not, so I try to be careful!
Madison is doing good, she is testing her boundaries on everything! I think being around her cousins as much as she is she also tries to be a big girl like them and gets very upset when she can't. I think she has also picked up a thing or two from her cousins that she tries to get away with. She is getting so big! I hate it, I keep telling her to stop growing! A few months ago, since Madi is so facinated with keys, we were outside and she wanted to try putting them in the door, so I pulled over a chair we had on the porch so she could reach and play; while I stood right there of course. Well the other day when we were coming in from outside and she had keys in hand, yes she reached up and had no trouble reaching the knob with the keys! I was so surprised! She's not eye to eye with the knob yet, thankfully, but it still gets me! Not to mention her vocabulary! She can say so much! Even today Jason was asking her to say, 'love you' and she did; of course it was as clear as you or I saying it, but you knew that's what she was saying. She has also moved from calling Clancy 'dog-dog' to some form of 'can-can' or 'cancy' or even 'can' I'm not sure. It is also amazing because I know she will have no problem picking up on putting her words into sentences when she reaches that! She already will say "mama, keys" or something like that, like when she wants something or is trying to give you something. So, not so much saying, "mama, here are the keys" but in her little vocabulary, that is what she's saying in her two words! It is also so fun to have friends with kids Madi's age give or take a few months to see how different and the same they are! It is funny too because Madi is always around bigger kids and then occasionally around her friend Seth who is a couple of months older but a boy none-the-less so he likes to wrestle so after being around all that when she gets around her friend Story or even our neighbor MaKenzie, she of course looks like she's trying to hug them but sometimes tries to tackle them too. It is so funny, but kind of scary too b/c I don't want her to hurt them being as that she is also the bigger of all her friends! She's not so much obese or anything but she's just bigger. :)
So, also on the note of Madison, it's coming down to where I really need to get a job, I'm totally dreading it b/c I really don't want to leave her and still trying to find the ideal situation where I can work a few days a week and take her with me for free. I have pretty much found that at Crossing Church just down the street from us; they are needing someone to work Sunday mornings, Monday mornings, and Wednesday nights. I can take Madi if I need to and it's good pay. I've filled out the application, just have not had the chance to take it by yet. I do hope it works out b/c it would be very good hours and would of course help to have the extra money. Of course I know it's inevitable that I will someday have to get more hours and therefore leave her more, I'm just trying to postpone it as much as possible. I'm enjoying my time with her and maybe being a little lazy :) but I know it's all for better. I think my big thing that's getting me is that I don't want to jump into a full on full time job so quickly b/c I don't know when we might plan on the next one and I don't want to get into the same situation again, I want to be able to stay home with the next one as much as I can. I know I may not be able to stay home full time with both, but I'll take part time! Maybe the Crossings thing will work out and I'll be able to keep that even with another one and we'll still be okay. We'll have to see where life takes us! :)
Alright, I feel like I've babbled enough; thus the title hodge podge. :) Hope everyone is doing well and taking good care of themselves! I don't know if I'll get around to posting before the holidays seeing my track record on here. :) So Happy Holidays to all and I'm sure I will see you soon!