Relationships

I guess in part of growing up; I've been thinking a lot about the people in my life; currently or previously. I just think it is so interesting how people come in your life and the types of relationships you can have! People you never expect to be friends with and the people you think were long gone suddenly become very close to you. I have really begun to realize that you make those relationships grow or not. You decide if those people will be close or further away. I used to always whine that certain people wouldn't ever call me or get upset that they went out and didn't even call me or ask me; then I realize, when was the last time I called them or asked them to do anything?! I guess for whatever reason I always thought friendships and family relationships were easy and marriage was the only one you had to work at. Obviously I have learned, if you want to keep anyone in your life it does take a little work! I think I always took it so hard because I am the type of person that once you are in my life you automatically have a special place in my heart and are my friend for life. Thus in turn because I treasure every realtionship I have I am very picky and it takes me some time to warm up to people. Which also frustrates me because I don't chat up people as well as people like Jason or my dad! Having my 10 year reunion coming up has been interesting in my relationships because a lot of people I never thought I would talk to again have become pretty good friends, yet at the same time; a lot of people that I never really talked to in high school and never really have since then, I'm kind of thinking why do I need to converse with you now? :) I started to take sociology in college and since I didn't finish college, didn't finish that; but something I will most likely look into finishing! I am going to finish college, but never really decided in what, so now I think it may be more in the sociology field! I always think it's interesting to see how people interact and I am a big people watcher, so it would be a good field. Anyway, basically I think because as you get older friends can become more scarce especially when I am pretty much a stay at home mom; I don't have co-workers and I don't really have a way to meet new people, yet; so I treasure everyone and have really pondered each realtionship becasue I do cherish everyone in my life. I especially love when you have family members you are close to! I have a sister that when I was still in high school followed me everywhere and I totally had no problem with it! We were best buds and although we've grown up we try to stay as close as possible; with kids and full time jobs, you can get pretty busy! Maybe that's also my thing because was we grow we have different interests with people we used to have everything in common with and that scares me (I also don't like change very much) so I'm trying to find common ground with everyone! I also think maybe that's why I have gotten so attached to my sewing because not only am I doing something that my grandma and great-grandma loved but it has brought me closer to other people I didn't expect! My cousin whom I used to play with a lot when we were little and her sister we had lost touch as we grew up and because we're into sewing it has brought us closer. We went to the zoo this past weekend and it was a pretty good time, nice to get to talk in person again! I also started to feel like I was losing touch with what I consider one of my best friends but sewing has brought us back together! I think the past 3 or 4 weekends we have been garage sale shopping and it's been a blast; yes we are going tomorrow too! :) People change but the people in your life don't have to. I think that is where I'm trying to find comfort. BUT, I love having new ones too! Meeting Laci has been so much of a blessing and Charolotte is a joy! Makes me realize that when you have a job and think man, I wish I hadn't worked at that stupid place, it was all for a reason, because I wouldn't have ever met those two ladies! I also hated how we had to move back into an apartment but we have some really great neighbors that I am really glad we have met! Even though they are moving soon, I hope they will become great friends of ours (including Madison w/ the baby above us)! I also think of those who have passed away friends and family and what a better person I am for knowing them. Yes their time may have been cut short; but I do truly believe everything happens for a reason. I also believe that even though those people are gone, they still live on through us!! I am still growing and loving every chance I get to spend with those people in my life! You are all a blessing and I wouldn't trade any of you! (well maybe some.....j/k!) Maybe this will give me more motivation to find a new job and make some new wonderful friends! :) Anyway, I just had to share and I don't have any new pictures, I will add more soon. Take care!
~Ashley